I know that I’ve been gone for awhile, but unfortunately I don’t really have a reason. I don’t have any big news to share or reason to explain why I’ve simply been, gone.
The end of the year brought on so many changes. I’m not planning on talking details, but there were a few shifts in my life that I was totally unprepared for. The beginning of the year tested me. It tested who I was and my ability to withstand the actions of others. Therefore, January became a month of retreat and strength. For an entire month, I attempted to strengthen my mind, my soul, and my happiness. With a few adjustments, this month has brought sunshine to my life that has been darkened for so long.
- Books: I’ve talked before of how much I long to read books more. In the past, I used to read all of the time, but I claimed that my marriage and work were preventing me from reading. This month, I made reading a priority. On my days off, I decided to trade in my phone and laptop and cuddle up with my kindle instead. Page after page, word after word, I took in so much knew knowledge, so many new stories. I can actually feel my imagination coming back to life.
- Music: When you don’t work out (sorry that’s not for me) and you only drive 3 min to work everyday, you don’t really hear much music. When I was in school, I listened to music as I walked to class, while I “worked out” and while I drove to and from work (20 min each way). Honestly, I miss music. I like the way it fills my soul and makes me want to get up and shout. Music makes me feel, free. This month during all the wee hours of the morning when I was awake, I would plug in my headphones and parade around the house listening to whatever felt good, right. I filled my cup and now have a few songs that I just can’t stop, won’t stop loving.
- Work: I spend 40+ hours a week at my job. Although there are parts of it that I am quite successful at, I still have many flaws that need time and attention, practice and flawless execution. I am no longer content with being “bad” or “terrible” at certain things, I want to know it all! Over the past few weeks, I’ve tried to master a few of them. Trial and error, I know I can be better. My hope is that with continued practice, I will succeed! I already love being at work, but mastering a new skill makes me love it that much more!
So there you have it, getting lost in books and songs, and days spent at work. That’s exactly where I’ve been.